Tuesday, June 29, 2010

my Sugie

March 17, 2007 was a good day..... It was the day our precious pup was born. Walker Texas Ranger, or Sugie as we call him most often, has been such a huge part of our lives since we spontaneously picked him up from a breeder Mother's Day 2007 after coming across a newspaper ad. My sweet sweet cat, Kitty Kat, was with us when we moved from TN but she wasn't providing me with the companionship I sought while Isaac worked 3rd shift. That's when we decided it was time for a puppy. He's been a constant companion, an amazing big brother, and the best friend I could ever ask for. I love him more than words can say, and I am so blessed to have him in my life! I hope each of you have a friend like him- one that listens no matter what, and loves you unconditionally.

Proverbs 17:17 A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity.

Friday, June 25, 2010

inspiration: found

Thanks to my sister and best friend, Christy Foreman, and a new friend, Rebekah Tillotson, I've realized that I should search for inspiration from within. Sometimes I plan a pity party for myself and then have it.... for weeks. It's ridiculous, but it's what I do and it's what I've always done. I'm a 27 year old wife and mother, yet somehow, I occasionally act like a 5 year old. Oh well. Anyway, I'm just glad that I have encouraging friends, and more particularly women, around me to pick me up when I'm down. I appreciate your honesty and your rawness. I feel excited again, like I can do what I love and not be ashamed if it's not perfect. Thanks again Ladies, I owe you! I'm definitely going to dedicate more time to what I love and be the best that I can be! I will strive to learn and ask questions, and be me. Thanks for believing in me, so that I can believe in myself again.

~CJ

Thursday, June 24, 2010

where to begin...

This is probably going to be long, as usual, so grab a snack folks!

I have been sooooo discouraged lately and really don't know how to dig myself out of this rut. I am just not feeling motivated or inspired at all. Have you ever wanted to do something so bad and wanted to get it right so bad, that you just talk yourself into thinking that you'll never do it the right way, so you just don't do it at all? That's kind of what has been happening to me lately. I feel so overwhelmed with so many things right now....but my "business" is something that I have definitely neglected because I just don't know how to do it and get it right. As I'm writing this, I know that it's Satan who is telling me I'll never be good enough and that I'll never succeed, but it still doesn't make me feel inspired....I need more time to devote to photography....I want to learn everything that I can.... I want more equipment.... It seems that my photographer friends are moving forward and I'm sinking in quick sand trying to catch up. Ugghhhh, so frustrating. Isaac has worked on my website some and we plan to devote some time to it this weekend. Once it's up, I will feel sooo much better.... hopefully. I really just need to get out there and shoot! Where do you find your inspiration? Leave a comment and let me know, maybe I can learn something! Ok, so that is my BIG FAT excuse for not being as dedicated to this blog as I should me. Sorry guys for being so lame.... I'm going to try really hard to do better!

Ok, now for an update... Jonah is doing fabulous and is starting to try to talk so much more. His personality is so fun, and it's incredible to see him develop. He has quite the sense of humor! He is LOVING the pool and is pretty brave in the water. I definitely think we have a water baby on our hands. He is the light of my life and as usual, I am constantly reminded of the overflowing love and joy that fills my heart because of my sweet boy!

Isaac and I joined Mecklenburg Community Church a while back and have had such an incredible journey there so far. We're getting more involved by volunteering and it feels so good to have a church family again. Isaac is still working 3rd shift which has been so challenging. He hasn't been on the same schedule as me since we were married 3.5 years ago! We've been praying sooo hard and he's been applying like crazy trying to get him on the same schedule as Jonah and I are. So, if you know anyone hiring for 1st shift, let a sista know!

I accepted a new position at work, which I am super excited (and nervous) about! I start July 6th. I'm leaving a department that I am so attached to which makes me pretty darn sad. Luckily, I'll be sitting right next to my current department so I'll definitely see everyone around. New challenges are exciting!

I think that's about it! For the most current personal photos, check out my facebook page!

I'll leave you with the last photo of our precious Hannah Marie. This was taken during my last trip to TN. She was my friend, sister, and companion through soooo many hard "teenager" times. I'll never forget countless reassuring nudges and kisses from my sweet girl. I am so grateful to have known her, and so grateful that she's been my Mom's baby since I moved away. She will certainly be missed, but I am confident we will see her again someday. I love you and miss you so much Hannah!

January 1998 - June 2010